happy birthday Tom Brady!! one of the celebrities on my top 5 list (of people that it would be ok to cheat on your s.o. with)

I just found out it was his birthday. 

He's only 30!

I thought he was older than that for some reason....

the oldest guy I've hooked up with was 30.....

bad, bad memory which I am trying to burn out of my mind, but I am just saying....

proximity

and, since I havent gotten any action in almost 6 months, I'd pretty much do anything that moves right about now. But he's really pretty. Even though he's kind of a man ho with the babys mama drama with the brazilian model or whatever. grrr....

there was a guy who always came into the restaurant last year who looked a lot like him and I told him that. He said I was the first person to say that. Being bored at work, I check out cute customers - what else would I do

well, I didnt tell him that last part. 

Anyway, Tom Brady is hot ,and last night when Jon Stewart (also on my list) interviewed Matt Damon on his show (not on my list, but very close) it was orgasmic

see what I mean....

and i watched scrubs season 1 and drooled over zach braff. he is on the cusp of the list. it depends what mood I am in. 

Apparently congress authorized lots and lots of money to rebuild a bridge across the tigris river. but not our own bridges in our own damn country. just thousands of earmarks and irrelevant shit in our country that gets passed and its irrelevant so people always bitch that congress never does anything

and that bridge across the tigris probably got blown to bits just a while later by an IED or something. shit

I had to drive over a smallish bridge over a smallish river on livernois when i went to the dr this morning. man did I fly over that thing. 

so, um, i'm going to turn off CNN and stop looking at pictures of this thing.

mood: bored music: Van Morrison

I'm postponing my Elizabeth Edwards rant.... however, I will get to that eventually b.c it is much deserved

however, so is my obama rant

which I will do now

am I a bad Democrat if i really really dont like him? am I going to burn in democrat hell?

haha i just got a hilarious vision of what democrat hell would look like. 

He actually called Hillary "Bush-Cheney Lite" .... what a tool.

I'm really not a Hillary fan but I am starting to accept that there is a good chance that she could get the nomination and that my beloved Bill Richardson will not. And I would vote for her over Obama. The only way I'd vote for Obama would be if he ran against Sam Brownback or some other crazyfuck Republican along those lines

He criticizes her for voting for the war originally and says that he opposed it from the start

Hey, Barack... YOU WEREN'T IN CONGRESS WHEN THE WAR STARTED!! YOU'VE BEEN IN THERE FOR 2 YEARS!! SHE IS MORE EXPERIENCED AND A MORE POLISHED POLITICIAN THAN YOU ARE!

I can understand why she voted for it. Well, ok, I cant. I was 16 when the war started and even then I knew it was a bad idea. The whole it will be over in a month thing, Saddam Hussein was tied to 9/11 and has wmds, even as a wee high school soph. I knew was a lot of crap. However, if the Bush white house if shoving misinformation and "you're with us or with the terrorists" rhetoric down the throats of Congress as well as Americans, and Congress deals with pressure as is and is in the public eye, then, yeah, she was probably feeling pressure to vote a certain way. Still, I don't agree with it. But I think it's preposterous that Obama is criticizing her for that because he wasnt even in the Senate at the time. Ok, he's opposing it now, but so is she. And she is trying to make up for it, but the whole trying to annul her original vote thing is really stupid b.c she's trying to vindicate herself. she needs to just admit her mistake, call Obama out on his crap, and move on.

which i think she is doing, as far as Obama. He is an empty vessel into which strategists pour politics of change, fixing the bush administration, new ideas rhetoric. His ideas arent that new; people older than him can have fresh and reform ideas; just because he is young and new to washington doenst mean a damn thing.

He is milking his democratic convention speech and playing the good speaker card all the way to the white house. or at least trying to. It's annoying as shit. and I'm getting really annoyed with people who, when they find out I'm not a huge fan of him, are like, "Why Karista? Because he's black?"

NO! NOT BECAUSE HE IS BLACK!!! I know my friends say it jokingly but ITS NOT BECAUSE HE'S BLACK! ITS BECAUSE HE HAS ZERO EXPERIENCE WITH NATIONAL/INTERNATIONAL POLITICS!!

i feel the same way about giuliani. you're a fucking mayor. that's another rant in and of itself. however, he doesnt totally irk me. and ER is on now so i dont know how much longer I am going to go on. 

Anyway, Obama does spew off lots of idealistic crap. the whole cat fight started over whether or not they were going to meet with "dangerous" world leaders (Iran, Syria, Venezuela; although I learned in DDHR that Iran is NOT that "dangerous" and we freak out much more than is necessary - another rant/tangent neither here nor there).

However, I am somewhat of a Wilsonian Isolationist. Especially after this war, we have our own problems we have to deal with and we definately need to fix our own problems here at home before we go about fixing the worlds problems. I really felt more strongly after DDHR b.c of our in vain efforts to promote democracy abroad and the ineffectiveness of the UN and how its actually a joke. no child left behind sucks, we have poverty that is unacceptable for the wealthiest country in the world, healthcare needs to be fixed.... we cant deal with international issues when our country is in this kind of shape - and this is the kind of democracy we're promoting abroad? with the dumbing down of politics which is another rant as well

and possibly a SIP topic; anti-intellectualism, the MTV generation's ridiculousness when it comes to politics. I get trying to appeal to younger voters, but I hate that it is dumbed down - its ruining the beauty of politics. 

grrz

ok, i cant find the damn remote. and its irking me greatly b.c i cant engage in my typical spaztic flipping of channels at commercials. 

remote, where art thou?

mood: Out of it music: Smokey Robinson

tomorrow (or maybe even sooner because of the time difference) are the elections in Turkey. Because democracy in Turkey was my poli sci research paper topic last quarter, I'm quite engrossed in this and plan on paying lots of attention

besides, what else am I going to do? all of my friends are ditching me for harry potter. hmph. 

however, many a time I have refused to hang out when ER has been on and last year i skipped out on hookah because the closer and saved were on back to back. and I dont have tivo/on demand/a good vcr that tapes shit. so, I guess it is sort of the same thing.

In any case, I got hooked on Turkey and its culture, history, and politics. It's location is obvi cool - istanbul is the only city on 2 cities and the country is on 2 continents. it has lots of strategic importance for the U.S, which is why we want to promote democracy there (what my paper was about). It is proximal to Eastern Europe, the Balkans, the Middle East, South Central Asia - areas in which we have taken interested in the past few decades.

But what i find most interesting is, although it has a 98% Muslim population, is secularized. they probalby have a greater separation of religion and state than we do, especially with our string of right wing presidents. Exceedingly rare for Islam because it is supposed to govern all aspects of their life. However, in Turkey, it is illegal to publish the Quran in Arabic, which is incredible, because muslims believe that Allah gave his message to Mohammad in Arabic and therefore muslims could only understand his teachings in Arabic. however, in order to separate religion and state, the quran, and calls to prayer, all have to be in Turkish, and also because of their strong nationalist identity, very "we are Turkish" their language, which has a latin alphabet, is used completely. 

women can vote, hold office, wear miniskirts and heels, people can buy booze across the street from mosques; Ataturk abolished the caliphate and put religious institutions and schoosl under state control

Ataturk was essentially the shit. and a genius.

However, now politicians are trying to reclaim traditional muslim values; the foreign minister even claiming that his goal was to "cover all women of the world everywhere" as in cover with clothing. students protested againt him because his wife wore a head scarf.

fortunately, his run for prime minister got blocked by parliament. 

another major issue is getting Turkey full membership in the EU, which I would also like to see happen. the U.S supports this (heh - something i agree with) and it would be nice have a Muslim country inside the "christian club" that is the EU. Sarkozy and Merkel dont want Turkey in the EU. and the EU has actually been pissy; it has issued requirements, Turkey has always made reforms to westernizing while still retaining its kemalist history, but still the EU is being obnoxious. They dont like the strong military, the treatment of the Kurds in the Kurdish region, and the media is sometimes supressed. 

oh no - *gaasp* diversity!! and sarkozy is a tool - he's like "Turkey isnt culturally a part of Europe" but according to one of the sources I used for my paper, legally, it is, and for political and economic purposes, it has been treated and used as a part of europe. so it can be used when its convenient but not actually be part of the EU. 

Fabulous

I find so much of this applicable to myself, and to the U.S. as well, but of course, since we think we are flawless, and omg, what could we ever learn from a muslim country?!?! so I really do think it needs to be a part of a western governing body. It did become part of NATO after WWII (Truman again - fuck yea!!)  because it feared the USSR, as did the U.S. (although Turkey had more reason to; it was actually CLOSE to the USSR while we kind of just blew it out of proportion; at least thats my take on the soviet union and im sticking to it) but I'd like to see Turkey get more respect and prominence that it definately deserves

anyway; why I find it applicable: a woman interviewed yesterday on CNN was like, "others tell us we are not real Muslims but we are, and we can be good muslims too" or something to that extent. And I totally agree with that. Other muslim nations really rail against Turkey because of their more secularist policies and social freedoms, regarding women and booze. 

It's like saying I'm less of a Christian because I dont go to church every sunday. Or because I dont "honor my father and my mother like the commandment says.

Or because I'm not catholic. I've been told by catholics that I'm going to hell because I'm protestant

actually, it's God's judgment who goes to hell and who does not. It is not up to humans, fleshy beings, to determine. that is a sin because it is arrogant and thinking one is endowed with God's powers. 

I almost said it's like saying i'm less of a Christian because I support gay rights and abortion, but that would be different. Way different.

I will pay $1,000 to anyone who can find the words gay, fag, homosexual, abortion, fetus, pro choice, pro life in the Bible

I dont have that much money but guess what Christian whackjobs? THOSE WORDS ARENT IN THERE!!! the words homo/heterosexual didnt enter the english language until about the 18th century. So that would be Jerry Falwell, Pat Robertson, and the worst out of the 3 Fred Phelps all being absolutely ridiculous, and then brainwashing people. I wish Falwell were still alive so i could call him out on his shit. I dont even want to be within 100 miles of Fred Phelps; he makes me sick.

However, stuff about women is in the Quran; as it is in the Bible, which prompted Falwell to blame 9/11 on feminists.

I probably have more to say and I'd like to think of something witty with which to close but I cant think of anything right now

so, next time on political blogging with Karista: ripping on Elizabeth Edwards' comments about Hillarly Clinton

and I dont even like Hillarly Clinton

mood: blah

dubya is 61 today - i wonder how he will celebrate

maybe a hodown on his ranch or something?

haha

umm - im going to ace deuce tonight! and im going to get schwasted! and play the greys anatomy drinking game!!! maybe (i threw it out as a suggestion) and jump on the bed to major guilty pleasure music with sara_chan and challenege her to our long overdue footrace!! and maybe make some drunk dials with her to boysszz!! and go swimming! and go to urban outfitters and spend the rest of my gift certificate money!

and probably lots of other fun stuff!

i love ann arbor. i can see myself living there. i always adamently swore i'd get out of michigan, but now i just want to get out of oakland county. the midwest takes hold of you. ok, it gets cold, but california taxes you for breathing and also is uppity, according to chris latiolais, like the dividing line is santa barbara - south of it is republicans, north is democrats. hurricaines are in the south, along with the bible belt.

so these seem like superficial reasons but basically, i dont mind it here that much. in michigan. its a unique state, and i guess i'll go wherever i can get a good job that i love. but i'd kill to go to a u of m grad school (esp law school, if i still want to, but im not sure if i still want to yet) 

or chicago. i love that place too. new york is, eh. i wasnt a huge fan, but i was there for like 2 days. 

ummm, ok, that was tangent # 133

i need to get my visa in the mail like now; call the consolate to confirm what i need to send b.c i dont 100% trust the CIP, go to cvs to buy a big enough envelope and go to the post office to deliver it. oh yea, and probably get the tracking service thingy. shit, forgot about that.

and then need to pack a2 shit. whilst watching ER. tee hee. or scrubs, which was on yesterday. ER reruns are in season 3, which i own and have watched multiple times. i wonder when 8 is due out?

ok, it doesnt say yet - dammit

but friday night lights comes out august 28!!!

aannnd i need a job to pay for my shit

im starting to have an energy burst kick in again. maybe this adderall shit *is* working. along with some coffee. i wake up automatically, before my alarm, try to go back to sleep, but i cant. hmmm....

i'm getting odd signals from my njb. he sounded mysterious on the phone last night and we were mostly communicating through text messages. i will def. be drunk dialing him tonight. he's going straight from his internshiop to school, so i'll have a small window to visit him before i leave for study abroad, however, if he still wants me to. like i said, major mixed messages. 

ok, i hope the embassy is open so i can call them and i hope they dont have strong accents. eek!

mood: busy music: Hey Juliet~LMNT

real entry i guess speaking about europe

just wanted to mention that for some reason mom decided to rent "because i said so" and for some reason i decided to watch it with her (probably because i was folding laundry by the t.v and she moved in)

holy shit. what a crappy movie. it made my head hurt b.c there was so much yelling, bickering back and forth and at the same time. 

mandy moore cant act. and diane keaton normally can so her in this movie was really painful to watch

plus mandy more sucks for going out with zach braff. hmph!

i told mom if she ever is that involved in my life i might have to hurt her. 

i dont get why she didnt turn off her fucking phone or just tell her mom to fuck off. if she was my mom i wouldve moved 3 states away ages ago. or changed my phone number or something. christ. 

tom everrett scott was also in it and he look gooood =D better than in saved and he cleans up well. looks better when he's not a disturbed bipolar AWOL air traffic controller off his meds (ER) and when he's not a scruffy bad boy paramedic with authority and gambling issues (saved). although he was good in those roles too. actually, he rocked those roles. especially saved, which i MISS AND I WANT BAAAAAACKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!! in this movie, he just looked pretty. 

i want saved back - now there's heartland on tnt, taking its place i assume, which is a medical drama but seems more touchy feely; a "miracle worker" heart transplant surgeon or something. eh. nah. whatevs. not a huge treat williams fan anyway. 

plus elisabeth reaser was a pain in the ass on greys - much better on saved: sassy, smart, playing hard to get resident. 

ahem, that was my tangent

so yeah. that movie made my head hurt. and made me realize how much i DONT want my family in my life after, lets say... grad school. 

i rented half nelson and pan's labyrinthe. although tomorrow i'm going to a2 with some sexy ladies to engage in all sorts of debaucherous activities, so i dont know if i will get to watch them then. 

today i had a HUGE energy burst in the morning - like from 10 till 2. i did 3 loads of laundry, cleaned my toilet, made my floor more visible (by actually packing up shit - not just shoving it elsewhere) remade my bed and folded clothes. oh yea and singlehandedly took care of rocket b.c matt and nick dont do it and i dont fancy cleaning up diarrhea. 

those dumbshits gave him crystal light. they're on this crystal light kick (nick at least, matt ensuing naturally) where they put excessive amounts in, so it tastes like watered down fruit punch. i noticed rocket's dish was red and matt said that they just gave him "a little" 

ok. dog. old. adrenal glands are shot. already has diarrhea problems probably indicating possible further gastrointestinal problems. and they give him sugar. brilliant. 

i think i need to go to bed. or maybe do some more cleaning. or pack some shit for tomorrow b.c sarah's getting me at noon.

yayyy =P i'm long overdue for playtime

mood: irritated

havent updated in a while. kind of been busy doing.... nothing. i've slowly unpacked stuff, slowly repacked stuff for europe, mostly i've been sleeping and watching t.v. and i'm trying to reorganize my room. i've started saving my books rather than sell them back because I want to start building a library and because apparently in comps, the profs ask you in the oral section about books you've read. eek! i've saved a couple of them from previous years anyway, such as Parading Through History and Backfire because they have been pretty kick ass. and the womens studies books. 

i've been reading some too. i finished the last sisterhood book in a day; it was decent. i love them all so i guess i'm not the greatest judge, because i've heard others say that one sucked. I started barack obama's book that I got for Christmas and I'm starting What's the Matter with Kansas over again because I dont remember it very well. I might restart Maureen Dowd's book again as well. I do have a long ass flight ahead of me = /

apparently barack obama offered to pay for dinner for 4 people so he could talk 1 on 1 with them about what they could do to change America, people just had to donate $ to the campaign but it could be like $5. apparently it had to be before midnight on june 13 though. dammit! while i'm not exactly crazy about him (which is why i'm reading the book - he seems cool but not like he could be president) i think dinner with him would be freaking cool. and i think i'd be a great candidate for it. i'm a college student, average, not an ivy leaguer elite person, while i do go to a good school, it's still underrated, at least on a national scale. I'm focusing on american history and politics, which i truly believe everyone needs to have a solid understanding about in order to change the country and help better it. I will be studying abroad in africa; a continent from which his father hails. not senegal, but i think it is kenya, but i have also heard that he is ibo, which would be nigeria. obama sounds like an ibo name. hmmm. I have an incredibly strong passion for politics and contemporary issues and would probably talk his head off becaue he seems like a very approachable, gregarious guy. 

or maybe i am being very idealistic. heh. 

i could write more but i have a dr. appt. i should not need shots - i am immune to pretty much everything, just having had 5 needles shoved into me and not being able to move my arms for a week and half. 

the wardeness is yelling at me. i must go

mood: busy music: new shoes

so on christopher titus norman rockwell is bleeding he talked about his dad being a superhero called "anti-dad" and I was like, holy shit! this guy *KNOWS* my dad. my dad is anti-dad

then he did impressions of anti-dad. 

"hey dad, i got an A!"

::anti dad flies in, he imitates anti dad flying in:: well, its not an A+!! ::imitates anti dad flying out, arms out, making whooshing and zooming noises::

"hey dad, i graduated college!"

anti dad flies in: "well you werent valedictorian were you?!?! ::whoosh - flies out::

"hey dad, I got a job!"

anti dad flies in "well you arent manager with a huge salary are you!??! ::whoosh - flies out::


i was like, holy crap! he talked about his dad being a h-core alky though, which my dad isnt, not by a long shot, not by, like at all, since all he does is drink wine with fancy meals "to enhance the flavor" on rare occasions a martini or some other trendy cocktail, in europe buys more booze that is unique and also trendy but doesnt really drink it, and on his 51st birthday came home from work and whipped out a bottle of brandy. my cue to stay the hell away. 

but seriously. that's exactly my dad. even in 8th grade, i remember getting 100 on a test, but i got the extra credit right and a regular question wrong so what does anti-dad say? "well, couldve been 105!!" 

i do a huge research paper on depression for AP psych and bring it up when we're fighting about my condition and he tells me it's "just a high school research paper" 

I'm an idiot for "applying and wanting to go to no name schools instead of michigan" and even though they say they are over it, i still had to battle them to come here. i shouldnt have had to. they tell me to drop it, but it all builds up over time. plus, they live in the past too, if not more so, bringing up the times i threw tantrums when i was 3 and saying i've been a bitch and immature ever since and i've never changed. 

then my dad yells at me more about "knowing more than he does" about politics and such, and i was like, um, im a major (before i had decided to declare history) so yeah, its my job to know as much as i can, and eventually do a thesis on it. what does he say "you're not even half way done with college yet. you dont know anything" 

when will it be enough? not that i want a ph.d (i dont think, i mean, probably not, but its totally up in the air right now) he shows disdain for gramps, grammy, and gary who all have ph.ds.

he is going to law school now so that should shut him up somewhat about my career path. however, if i dont want to go to law school, then what? if i want to go to a certain law school, then what? 

even if i am a lawyer, im not a heart surgeon AND a lawyer. and i didnt discover a unicorn and im not a rocket scientist.

see why i'm not looking forward to going home this summer? after a tough year i get to go home and deal with him, mom, matt who has a ph.d in stupid, who is nick's lackey, nick, who is a douchebag sketchy fratboy bitch. 

and i get to hear about senegal. and not having a job. or internship. and my weight. from everyone. and my "condition" and how i need to "snap out of it" and how theres nothing really wrong; im just "lazy"

it was funny, but at the same time i was like, oh God, its like looking in a fucking mirror. kudos to titus and all for being able to laugh at it and other stuff in his family (i definately do it too b.c my family is absolutely batshit crazy) 

i remember at the end of winter quarter on the drive home, i literally was working right up until mom came to pick me up b.c latiolais let us turn our paper in at 8 a.m. she called dad on the way home, he was talking to me and was like "what's wrong" i told him i hadnt slept, what do i get? at first, silence. then "well, i dont know what to say. either its too hard for you, or you're not trying hard enough, not managing your time well enough..." and then he trailed off

im too tired to fight anymore. at least if im here, or not there, i dont have to. they wonder why i dont call them; thats why. when i do call i can be like, hi, im here, you dont have to worry about me like you always say you do, nobodys shooting up my campus, im not fucking up like i did last year, im not "vulnerable" and "untrustworthy", mmmkz bye

this year's been decent. more on that later

it will be more decent when i finish these papers. maybe i will turn in my paper for she lewis wednesday at noon. even though thats when my dugas paper is due. i need all the time i can get. we'll see

then im going to be packing all my shit in a day and a half. like i'll have anything better to do. sleep, i guess i could. im looking forward to sleeping in an air conditioned room where there is no construction, car alarm, garbage truck everyday, fucking loud drunk annoying people outside, lawn mower every day noise ALL THE FUCKING TIME meanwhile feeling like im going to sweat to death. 

although b.c of the t.v now installed outside my room, matt and nick watch it till like 4 a.m and when im at home, i dont go to bed that late. so it annoys me, and of course, im the bitchy one, im the one making more noise than they are, and so on and so on... 

*biiig sigh*

this was much longer than i intended for it to be. i just wanted to mention chris titus' thing but i guess it tunred into something longer than that.

if you read this far, you need a hobby.

mood: anxious music: outside annoyingness

How much packing I have done: ZERO

How much work I have done on my poli sci research paper: ZERO

How much work have I done on my history paper since getting back revisions: ZERO

How fucked am I:   fucked ^ 12394870912374

heh

ok, well i checked out books. from the K library. wanted to go to westerns lib. but found stuff @ k instead. want to go to wmu today, but its pouring outside. and i dont have a car =/

havent packed a fucking thing. im going to get boxes on wednesday so i can just throw shit in there and go. I cant focus worth a damn in my room ; its so fucking hot and when im in my room at  night, even till 4 a.m there are people outside being fucking loud and obnoxious. if i closed my window, i really would explode. 

I'm really still not looking forward to going home, not looking forward to going on vacation, still in denial that I'm going to senegal. doree thinks i'm not ready because i'm not excited about it and because im not reading up on it but seriously when the fuck have i had time? It's on my list of things to do this summer, and books I want to read. So far i have

- books about senegal (dont know what yet, i really want to find something other than lonely planet and crap like that b.c im not really going anywhere else other than dakar and its not going to be like, woo hoo, vacation! guidebooks do those 2 things; im not doing those 2 things)
- anything in french b.c my french is kind of crappy and needs work
- People's history of the United States
- Audacity of Hope - Barack Obama's book that I got for Christmas. Maybe after I read it i can start getting excited about him or like him but he really isnt doing it for me right now. 
- The new sisterhood book - so i can have something fun to read; and it will probably take me less than a week
-umm - i have a few more books on my shelf, here, at home, in my moms library i'd like to read (she has a lot of the classics and other stuff i cant think of right now)  I still havent finished maureen dowd's book or whats the matter with kansas. i could do those too

haha, im so not going to get through all of those; but it could be wishful thinking. but i do have a 8 hour plane ride to malta, then like a 9 hour one to dakar and i need to be in specific conditions to sleep on planes. like a window seat (which my dad always is pissy about and insists on taking), drugs (last year i was on a much higher dose of seroquel, but now i dont think i'll have any trouble sleeping), boredom, music or some type of earplugs to shut out noise b.c im always the lucky one who gets stuck behind the screaming toddler. 

um... I saw knocked up on friday. it was really funny. not gut busting hilarious; although there were parts in there that were. i didnt expect to like it as much as i did, which is why i wanted to see it here, so i didnt have to spend $9 in birmingham and be surrounded by obnoxious birmingham pre-teens dressed like skank monkeys. but it was quite entertaining, and a good break from stress.

except now, like i said, megaly fucked.

and i was hoping to be headed to western's lib by now, but its pouring. and i dont have an umbrella. so i guess i could head to brunch and then get ready, do online research and see if anyone would be nice enough to drive me. 

laters

mood: drained music: Smile - Lily Allen