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one week.....  
09:19pm 31/08/2007
 
 
Karista Lynn
so im leaving in a week  - i dont leave for senegal till sunday of next week but mom and I are leaving for chicago for a long weekend a week from today

my lonely planet book came in the mail today that i ordered off of amazon and im reading some of it, which is starting to get me kind of excited and stave off some of the anxiety. however, i know the anxiety will rear its ugly head once again when i have to deal with insurance bullshit and packing crap.

dont even get me started on insurance coverage and bureaucratic crapola. they told me something completely different at the beginning of the summer; now im jumping through an entirely different set of hoops to get meds while i am gone. i am cutting it ridiculously close as well - im  not going to be able to get them till tuesday or wednesday. im so annoyed. 

anyway - not going to get into it.

if i go to lac rose (an hour drive or so from Dakar) which is a pink lake (the name in french) that is pink because of the high salt content (but not as high as the dead sea - fish still live in it and it's not painful to swim in) and its shallow so the sun makes the minerals reflect pink or something like that. anyway some company lets you rent camels for an hour for what is equivalent to about $27. hahaha shit is so cheap there! i can get dresses tailor made for $15, and other stuff is really cheap too. 

i think renting a camel would be fun. haha. as would swimming in a pink lake.

and i found out we're spending a month in saint louis for the sustainable development course - its going to be a different course because the guy that usually does it retired so we're now doing something relating to the river valley (part of the city is on an island in the senegal river) and we're living in villas. 

anyway, with enough nagging from mom, i started to get shit together. i have one olive green suitcase almost filled but the zipper is busted so i'm going to have to moved all that beautifully packed stuff to another suitcase. and i think i want to use the ginormous purple duffel as well - i might even be able to consolidate into 1 suitcase - thats how big the thing is. then again, it would probably weigh over 50 lbs. fuck airlines and the TSA. 

but i have a nice, leisurely weekend to take care of stuff, free of mom and dad nagging - they are up north for a weekend and i put my foot down and refused to go. im not going to a2 tomorrow night b.c matt is with me and they dont want him to stay by himself (i didnt get to spend a weekend by myself till i was 17, summer before my senior year, and that was only because i had a 12 hour shift at pine lake)

however i am going to go sunday to monday, see my friends, get drunk, and maybe get some booty from my njb *crosses fingers* i havent gotten any since i last saw him in march, he's been gone all summer, and i am going to be celibate the entire time I am in Senegal. So if i dont get any it will be practically a year and i might die

also, i am starting to sort of develop feelings for him. i think. i have no idea. and in any case, he is a friend and i do want to see my friends and cool people before i leave for 6 months.

so... yeah - thats it. i think im going to pack some more shit, read more about senegal, or sew holes in skirts i want to bring with me, or i dont know what.

lates.
mood: boredbored
music: Why Can't I ~ Liz Phair
 
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ugh  
02:07pm 26/08/2007
 
 
Karista Lynn
i have a huge pit in my stomach and i suddenly dont feel so great.

i leave 2 weeks from today. i still dont really feel like it. i say it to people and it still doesnt register with me. just now i was looking at the horse pill malaria drugs i have to take and it sort of struck me, but not really. the smallest things kind of make it hit me and set me off. 

and then was looking at my to do list of stuff that i still havent done, like dealing with insurance shit. they are really obnoxious; they told me one thing at the beginning of the summer, now its something different. so i have to fix it, and i dont want to get yelled at for it. mom's been cautious and all "wahh im going to miss you" so i dont think she'll start something. im not trying to either. 

and i get to see another shrink tomorrow as well. i dont know why but doctors always make me nervous. no matter how many times i see them, no matter how many times ive done the shrink thing, even if i know there is nothing wrong with me, i get really nervous going, even thinking about going; knowing that i have to go in the days, hours leading up to it. of course, i get yelled at for that as well. i was pacing nervously around the house before i had to get an MRI and mom flipped out. then i took about 3 xanax and was ok, but still, yelling doesnt help. she might not understand it b.c she is a doctor but i do have unrealistic anxieties, going to any doctor happens to be one of them. even if its just the general doctor, dentist, psychiatrist, gyno, neuro.... name it. she has out there fears that she gets worked up over, like flying and traveling that i dont understand so she should shove it. 

so for those reasons, i am kind of restless and would like to sleep cuz i am tired and didnt get much sleep last night. but i dont feel like i'd be able to sleep.

i went to church today - my last time for a long long time. no presbyterian churches in senegal. and even so, if there were (there wont be - their 5% christian population is catholic - and everyone knows how i feel about catholics) it wouldnt be the kirk - my home, the church in which i was raised. 

so yeah, its sad. 

im going to try and sleep.
mood: anxiousanxious
music: Only - NIN
 
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randomness; diet shit; weight shit  
12:21pm 23/08/2007
 
 
Karista Lynn
i have this motivation to work out, but i dont know if i want to act on it. therefore it might die. 

i gained some weight up north because mom cooked for us and we went out to eat a few times. when moms not around i eat special K, lean cuisines, and luna bars for meals. and when i go out i feel cheap so i dont eat much. not that i go out for food with friends much anymore; we mostly stay in now, which im really ok with. 

i cant remember the last time i worked out. i'll wake up and be like, yeah i want to and then like, hahaha just kidding. so maybe i'll just do 15 minutes on the elliptical, because anything more than that just might kill me. and im waiting till after what not to wear because the tv in the basement doesnt work and i need something to distract me from the tediousness and crappiness that is working out. ugh.

i was doing pretty well - i was down to 125 - and i wanted to be down to 120 or less by the time i left. 


oh yeah, that will be 2 weeks from sunday. 

holy

mary

mother

OF

GOD

i'm not ready at all. ive somewhat accepted that im going but havent assembled my stuff and the like. mrahh!!! i still have some logistical crapola to deal with. 

but i'm back to eating my feelings, and i have lots of feelings with all the drama in this house, and since theres not much to eat i eat lots of whatever is around instead of just one thing thats bad. 

i wonder if i will lose weight when i get to senegal. i know that adjusting to the food might make me sick but their food is really oily and they put palm oil on everything, which makes it sugary and fatty. we shall see.

my black pants that i got last year (i think?) were slipping off of me a few weeks ago. i put them on when we went to dinner at ruth chris and they hardly stayed on. and they dont have belt loops. i was happy. 

so, um. need. motivation. NOW. as far as looking good in senegal, thats really not motivation. im not there to score guys (for many reasons) last year my motivations were seeing nana and her deal with diabetes.

ive been napping somewhat less i suppose. less than 2 hours which isnt bad. 

plus my vyvanse trial ran out. so much for the i-take-ADD-drugs-which-inhibit-my-appetite diet. meh. and last month my period killed my apetite and made me want to hurl if i just looked at food. but that didnt happen with my period this month... hmm.....

why do i watch What Not To Wear? its so predictable... trash persons clothes, give rules, person shops, trash what person shops for, help her shop.... this girl is shopping but they still arent satisfied... shes shopping for lots of cashmere and they're still saying she looks like a 15 year old and its not sophisticated enough

$100 plus sweaters not sophisticated enough!?! and in oakland county, maybe, 15 year olds will wear cashmere but not in the real world. so i think it is mature dressing. 

whatever. 

ok, hopefully my motivation will not die. *crosses fingers*
mood: boredbored
music: What Not to Wear
 
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holy....  
11:50am 09/08/2007
 
 
Karista Lynn
one month from today....
mood: in shock and some denialin shock and some denial
 
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happy birthday to celebrity top 5  
08:06pm 03/08/2007
 
 
Karista Lynn

happy birthday Tom Brady!! one of the celebrities on my top 5 list (of people that it would be ok to cheat on your s.o. with)

I just found out it was his birthday. 

He's only 30!

I thought he was older than that for some reason....

the oldest guy I've hooked up with was 30.....

bad, bad memory which I am trying to burn out of my mind, but I am just saying....

proximity

and, since I havent gotten any action in almost 6 months, I'd pretty much do anything that moves right about now. But he's really pretty. Even though he's kind of a man ho with the babys mama drama with the brazilian model or whatever. grrr....

there was a guy who always came into the restaurant last year who looked a lot like him and I told him that. He said I was the first person to say that. Being bored at work, I check out cute customers - what else would I do

well, I didnt tell him that last part. 

Anyway, Tom Brady is hot ,and last night when Jon Stewart (also on my list) interviewed Matt Damon on his show (not on my list, but very close) it was orgasmic

see what I mean....

and i watched scrubs season 1 and drooled over zach braff. he is on the cusp of the list. it depends what mood I am in. 

Apparently congress authorized lots and lots of money to rebuild a bridge across the tigris river. but not our own bridges in our own damn country. just thousands of earmarks and irrelevant shit in our country that gets passed and its irrelevant so people always bitch that congress never does anything

and that bridge across the tigris probably got blown to bits just a while later by an IED or something. shit

I had to drive over a smallish bridge over a smallish river on livernois when i went to the dr this morning. man did I fly over that thing. 

so, um, i'm going to turn off CNN and stop looking at pictures of this thing.

mood: boredbored
music: Van Morrison
 
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boredom and laziness breeds random crap being pulled out of my ass  
04:25pm 03/08/2007
 
 
Karista Lynn
So i havent been updating that much because NOTHING IS GOING ON!

i wake up, have pills and coffee for breakfast (fucking diets) maybe diet cereal if i'm that hungry (a la special K, kashi, or the meal bars, but usually this does not happen) watch ER, watch other shit (what not to wear, CNN, stupid shows on MTV that I make fun of), shower, fall asleep. wake up, eat dinner, watch more tv (law and order, news, jeopardy, scrubs, daily show, colbert, sex and the city, southpark, trashy dating shows on mtv, etc) go to sleep. lather rinse repeat.

exciting huh? not how i really wanted my summer before going abroad to unfold.

and i'm still tired. i write down all this stuff i want to do, errands and the like and none of it gets done. i fall asleep or crawl into bed and just stare at the ceiling. 

Is it bad if the fact that in just over a month I am going to be in Africa for 6 months straight, essentially by myself, living with a family with whom I am unfamiliar, has not sunk in yet? It's still very surreal and no matter how much I say it, write about it, or tell other people about what I'm doing in the fall, it doesnt seem like its really going to happen.

I wonder when I'm really going to have this like, a-ha moment, of when it is going to hit me. Maybe then I can start taking more proactive steps to getting prepared to leave. But I guess i'm not getting as ready as I would like to get because I dont feel like I'm going anywhere. So why would I prepare for something that I dont feel like is going to happen?

something needs to happen, and it needs to happen fast. I've been lying to my parents and telling them I've been getting ready. 

Mom said today she wants to spend the weekend in Chicago and then I leave on sunday sept. 9. So I would need to be packed before then and I NEED to visit A2 so i can have quite a debaucherous time and go batshit crazy because I'm not going to be doing it for a while. Also, JILFcalled me last night, drunk, and wants to hook up again. I didnt think he'd want to b.c shit has been weird between us since the last time. And I hope he means it sober. He's going to have his own apt =D I've been wanting to b.c it was good, but I think it can be better, and, like I said, ultimate debauchery time. I will be celibate for the entire time in Africa and I would like some good memories and a solid night of incredibly hot sex that renders me temporarily paralyzed.

hahaha. well I dont know if i want to be drunk for that. I was last time, and I want to remember it better this time around. It was pretty great. 

erm. ok....

Max and Ermas is hiring, supposedly (i've found that just b.c places have hiring or help wanted signs in the window sometimes they forget they are there) and I've kind of given up the idea of getting something resembling a real job. I wanted to look for something more internship like, or at least a part time job that looked more advanced than what I had done previously. I'd seen stuff for administrative assistants and the like. However, right now I am desperate. I might call and beg. Be like, are you REALLY hiring because I NEED something to do for the next month and I will literally be your slave. I will work every day open till close - practically all of my friends are gone and I need MONEY to go abroad and for when my parents cut me loose. Training me shouldnt be that difficult seeing as I worked in crazy restaurant situations before. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE!!

ok, and make it sound more mature than that. Even if it is in birmingham, and everytime I go there I see someone I know, someone I dont particularly want to see... I dont care. I'm so desperate it's not even funny. Plus, when I do see people now I dont mind as much.  When the small talk arises its more fun "oh yeah.... I'm going to Africa... for 6 months.... yeah, I am pretty good at french.... yeah, it will be pretty different but I'm really adventurous and excited... I'm definately a lot more together than I was in high school" its more fun b.c i can kind of brag b.c I like the place I am in much more. and who the fuck else is going to africa who graduated from dcd? oh right, probably nobody

which I am. doing better, that is. I've been doing lots of thinking, self introspection and the like. Mom says i need to "change my ways" and I told her I have. and she says she doesnt see it. she's still a pain in the ass. that hasnt changed. 

I dont feel like getting into it now. But I am kind of better. without therapy. I'm getting used to the fact that I'm not really going to have therapy over there so I'm trying to think things through myself. 

I'm going to try to force myself to be more productive while I am awake. and take advantage of it; it does not happen often. I saw dr amann today and got a prescription for Vyvanse, which is supposed to be a more improved version of adderall. we shall see.
mood: blahblah
 
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more political rants  
09:49am 27/07/2007
 
 
Karista Lynn

I'm postponing my Elizabeth Edwards rant.... however, I will get to that eventually b.c it is much deserved

however, so is my obama rant

which I will do now

am I a bad Democrat if i really really dont like him? am I going to burn in democrat hell?

haha i just got a hilarious vision of what democrat hell would look like. 

He actually called Hillary "Bush-Cheney Lite" .... what a tool.

I'm really not a Hillary fan but I am starting to accept that there is a good chance that she could get the nomination and that my beloved Bill Richardson will not. And I would vote for her over Obama. The only way I'd vote for Obama would be if he ran against Sam Brownback or some other crazyfuck Republican along those lines

He criticizes her for voting for the war originally and says that he opposed it from the start

Hey, Barack... YOU WEREN'T IN CONGRESS WHEN THE WAR STARTED!! YOU'VE BEEN IN THERE FOR 2 YEARS!! SHE IS MORE EXPERIENCED AND A MORE POLISHED POLITICIAN THAN YOU ARE!

I can understand why she voted for it. Well, ok, I cant. I was 16 when the war started and even then I knew it was a bad idea. The whole it will be over in a month thing, Saddam Hussein was tied to 9/11 and has wmds, even as a wee high school soph. I knew was a lot of crap. However, if the Bush white house if shoving misinformation and "you're with us or with the terrorists" rhetoric down the throats of Congress as well as Americans, and Congress deals with pressure as is and is in the public eye, then, yeah, she was probably feeling pressure to vote a certain way. Still, I don't agree with it. But I think it's preposterous that Obama is criticizing her for that because he wasnt even in the Senate at the time. Ok, he's opposing it now, but so is she. And she is trying to make up for it, but the whole trying to annul her original vote thing is really stupid b.c she's trying to vindicate herself. she needs to just admit her mistake, call Obama out on his crap, and move on.

which i think she is doing, as far as Obama. He is an empty vessel into which strategists pour politics of change, fixing the bush administration, new ideas rhetoric. His ideas arent that new; people older than him can have fresh and reform ideas; just because he is young and new to washington doenst mean a damn thing.

He is milking his democratic convention speech and playing the good speaker card all the way to the white house. or at least trying to. It's annoying as shit. and I'm getting really annoyed with people who, when they find out I'm not a huge fan of him, are like, "Why Karista? Because he's black?"

NO! NOT BECAUSE HE IS BLACK!!! I know my friends say it jokingly but ITS NOT BECAUSE HE'S BLACK! ITS BECAUSE HE HAS ZERO EXPERIENCE WITH NATIONAL/INTERNATIONAL POLITICS!!

i feel the same way about giuliani. you're a fucking mayor. that's another rant in and of itself. however, he doesnt totally irk me. and ER is on now so i dont know how much longer I am going to go on. 

Anyway, Obama does spew off lots of idealistic crap. the whole cat fight started over whether or not they were going to meet with "dangerous" world leaders (Iran, Syria, Venezuela; although I learned in DDHR that Iran is NOT that "dangerous" and we freak out much more than is necessary - another rant/tangent neither here nor there).

However, I am somewhat of a Wilsonian Isolationist. Especially after this war, we have our own problems we have to deal with and we definately need to fix our own problems here at home before we go about fixing the worlds problems. I really felt more strongly after DDHR b.c of our in vain efforts to promote democracy abroad and the ineffectiveness of the UN and how its actually a joke. no child left behind sucks, we have poverty that is unacceptable for the wealthiest country in the world, healthcare needs to be fixed.... we cant deal with international issues when our country is in this kind of shape - and this is the kind of democracy we're promoting abroad? with the dumbing down of politics which is another rant as well

and possibly a SIP topic; anti-intellectualism, the MTV generation's ridiculousness when it comes to politics. I get trying to appeal to younger voters, but I hate that it is dumbed down - its ruining the beauty of politics. 

grrz

ok, i cant find the damn remote. and its irking me greatly b.c i cant engage in my typical spaztic flipping of channels at commercials. 

remote, where art thou?

mood: Out of itOut of it
music: Smokey Robinson
 
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aaaaaaaaaassssssssssssss  
02:36am 22/07/2007
 
 
Karista Lynn
i feel absolutely awful

the older I get, the worse my period symptoms get. 

I need something, but medication is kind of out of the question; i already take 5 of them and birth control would kind of fuck me up b.c it badly reacts with some of them. i have my reservations with herbal supplements and even otc drugs i've been warned against b.c of bouce back pain. i do take midol, however, b.c it seems to be the only thing that works. however, even that lately ,seems to be ineffective

literally, when i sat up today, i almost had the wind knocked out of me and almost had to make a mad dash to the bathroom b.c i had a crazy wave of nausea come over me. everything that could possibly go wrong with a person goes wrong during my period. 

my head is throbbing, as is my stomach. i probably have a caffeine headache, but caffeine upsets my stomach at times, especially when i am already feeling like shit, therefore i am trying not to drink it. i had a couple cups of tea and that was it. and while most women get food cravings during their period, i take a bit of something and feel like im going to hurl

mkz, enough tmi period talk

i did nothing today which was the exactly opposite of what i wanted to happen. i was hoping to accomplish a lot b.c my friends are out of town/preoccupied with harry potter. however, i laid in bed all day because i did not want to/felt i could not move. i was forced to get out for the window washer people and i ate some stuff b.c since i was not preparing food (yay weekends!) mom made caprase salad and lasagna. i had a little of both : ) 

and i saw calypso as well. he is hilarious, however, he sank his little jaw of puppy needle teeth into my arm which actually REALLY hurts. i actually have an imprint of it on my arm. 

while i adore him, rocket is still my baby. and i am really really worried. every time i walk into the kitchen, i have to look long and hard to make sure his chest is moving and he is breathing. just an hour ago i actually ran over to him and pet him kind of hard to see if he was awake. he was and i breathed a HUGE sigh of relief, kissed him, and thanked God. 

it scares me shitless. he cannot pass when i am in senegal. i will be beyond devestated. he is sicker than i have realized and mom and dad have not really told me much about it; i am considering bracing myself and calling the vet who treated him when we were in europe. i told mom we cannot put him down; he is family and i asked if they would put down one of their patients. so we agree on that point, however, mom said "no heroic measures" to the tech at the vet office last time we went. i had to choke back serious tears. 

this is happening way to fast for me. i knew it was going to happen eventually but not know. please God, not now. it's like what grammy deals with, her fears of not being around to watch me graduate high school, but now she is hopeful she will be able to see me finish college. 

my parents actually told me the first thing grammy said when i was born that she would not live to see me graduate high school. how uplifting

the average age of brittanys is 13-14. rocket is 11. I am holding onto that fact and having faith.

some of my self introspections and getting more in touch with my faith has made me realize that, even when life gets really really shitty that, in the end, afterward, or eventually, things turn out to be ok. shit works out.

i kind of am rambling, repeating myself, and hopefully making sense

my meds are starting to kick in and making me tired. i should probably go to bed. i have to get up in 4 hours to go to church anyway. i could go to the later service but there's hardly anyone at that service and it feels weird. 

matt comes home tomorrow; yay for the fun, non moody brother. nick is back with kelley and last night he was on the phone with her actually yelling. i couldnt be with someone i fought with that much - it wouldnt be worth it. plus he went out with her before - i'd have trouble getting back together w. someone - theres usually a reason it didnt work out the first time. needless to say, his pissing and moaning and bitching and whining cut into my watching scrubs on dvd and drooling over zach braff

mmkz bed time
location: bedroom
mood: nauseatednauseated
music: Miss Halfway~ Anya Marina
 
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political blogging time  
11:34am 21/07/2007
 
 
Karista Lynn

tomorrow (or maybe even sooner because of the time difference) are the elections in Turkey. Because democracy in Turkey was my poli sci research paper topic last quarter, I'm quite engrossed in this and plan on paying lots of attention

besides, what else am I going to do? all of my friends are ditching me for harry potter. hmph. 

however, many a time I have refused to hang out when ER has been on and last year i skipped out on hookah because the closer and saved were on back to back. and I dont have tivo/on demand/a good vcr that tapes shit. so, I guess it is sort of the same thing.

In any case, I got hooked on Turkey and its culture, history, and politics. It's location is obvi cool - istanbul is the only city on 2 cities and the country is on 2 continents. it has lots of strategic importance for the U.S, which is why we want to promote democracy there (what my paper was about). It is proximal to Eastern Europe, the Balkans, the Middle East, South Central Asia - areas in which we have taken interested in the past few decades.

But what i find most interesting is, although it has a 98% Muslim population, is secularized. they probalby have a greater separation of religion and state than we do, especially with our string of right wing presidents. Exceedingly rare for Islam because it is supposed to govern all aspects of their life. However, in Turkey, it is illegal to publish the Quran in Arabic, which is incredible, because muslims believe that Allah gave his message to Mohammad in Arabic and therefore muslims could only understand his teachings in Arabic. however, in order to separate religion and state, the quran, and calls to prayer, all have to be in Turkish, and also because of their strong nationalist identity, very "we are Turkish" their language, which has a latin alphabet, is used completely. 

women can vote, hold office, wear miniskirts and heels, people can buy booze across the street from mosques; Ataturk abolished the caliphate and put religious institutions and schoosl under state control

Ataturk was essentially the shit. and a genius.

However, now politicians are trying to reclaim traditional muslim values; the foreign minister even claiming that his goal was to "cover all women of the world everywhere" as in cover with clothing. students protested againt him because his wife wore a head scarf.

fortunately, his run for prime minister got blocked by parliament. 

another major issue is getting Turkey full membership in the EU, which I would also like to see happen. the U.S supports this (heh - something i agree with) and it would be nice have a Muslim country inside the "christian club" that is the EU. Sarkozy and Merkel dont want Turkey in the EU. and the EU has actually been pissy; it has issued requirements, Turkey has always made reforms to westernizing while still retaining its kemalist history, but still the EU is being obnoxious. They dont like the strong military, the treatment of the Kurds in the Kurdish region, and the media is sometimes supressed. 

oh no - *gaasp* diversity!! and sarkozy is a tool - he's like "Turkey isnt culturally a part of Europe" but according to one of the sources I used for my paper, legally, it is, and for political and economic purposes, it has been treated and used as a part of europe. so it can be used when its convenient but not actually be part of the EU. 

Fabulous

I find so much of this applicable to myself, and to the U.S. as well, but of course, since we think we are flawless, and omg, what could we ever learn from a muslim country?!?! so I really do think it needs to be a part of a western governing body. It did become part of NATO after WWII (Truman again - fuck yea!!)  because it feared the USSR, as did the U.S. (although Turkey had more reason to; it was actually CLOSE to the USSR while we kind of just blew it out of proportion; at least thats my take on the soviet union and im sticking to it) but I'd like to see Turkey get more respect and prominence that it definately deserves

anyway; why I find it applicable: a woman interviewed yesterday on CNN was like, "others tell us we are not real Muslims but we are, and we can be good muslims too" or something to that extent. And I totally agree with that. Other muslim nations really rail against Turkey because of their more secularist policies and social freedoms, regarding women and booze. 

It's like saying I'm less of a Christian because I dont go to church every sunday. Or because I dont "honor my father and my mother like the commandment says.

Or because I'm not catholic. I've been told by catholics that I'm going to hell because I'm protestant

actually, it's God's judgment who goes to hell and who does not. It is not up to humans, fleshy beings, to determine. that is a sin because it is arrogant and thinking one is endowed with God's powers. 

I almost said it's like saying i'm less of a Christian because I support gay rights and abortion, but that would be different. Way different.

I will pay $1,000 to anyone who can find the words gay, fag, homosexual, abortion, fetus, pro choice, pro life in the Bible

I dont have that much money but guess what Christian whackjobs? THOSE WORDS ARENT IN THERE!!! the words homo/heterosexual didnt enter the english language until about the 18th century. So that would be Jerry Falwell, Pat Robertson, and the worst out of the 3 Fred Phelps all being absolutely ridiculous, and then brainwashing people. I wish Falwell were still alive so i could call him out on his shit. I dont even want to be within 100 miles of Fred Phelps; he makes me sick.

However, stuff about women is in the Quran; as it is in the Bible, which prompted Falwell to blame 9/11 on feminists.

I probably have more to say and I'd like to think of something witty with which to close but I cant think of anything right now

so, next time on political blogging with Karista: ripping on Elizabeth Edwards' comments about Hillarly Clinton

and I dont even like Hillarly Clinton

mood: blahblah
 
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booored  
01:59pm 19/07/2007
 
 
Karista Lynn
so im bored more so than usual b.c im sitting on my ass waiting for the DHL guy to arrive. someone needs to sign for the package and like i can count on nick to do it. it is my shit anyway - my important shit

its my departure packet - i called the CIP and asked if they had sent it yet b.c they do have my visa copy. and they were like, oh, yea, i'll send it and it should be there tomorrow.

wtf? i faxed the copy to them like a week and a half ago! what the hell took them so long? I need time to like, READ the packet and  all. That would be nice. and sort through all my stuff. 

i guess now i do have some down time to work on my crap. i finished the housing form, slightly sugar coated, sent that, now am polishing my resume, need to finish the cover letter. i dont want to leave the first floor b.c our doorbell doesnt work. with all the work we've gotten done on the house you'd think they could get that fixed too. 

and i really want to take a shower. nick would piss and while if i pulled him away from madden in the basement just to listen for the door. 

i still need to vacuum - mom asked us too and i dont have anything else to do, but if i vacuum, i cant hear anything. 

so, yeah, sitting. doing nothing. listening. kind of sleepy. i have a tendency to fall asleep on this couch. i'll read on this couch, lie down and then i'm out. 

I'm hungry too - the lean cuisines i ate the past 2 days have sucked; i actually put them down the disposal after a few bites. yesterday i just ate the chicken and today the whole thing was gross. 

i wish i had motivation to work out. i really wanted to be back down to 115-120 before leaving for abroad. i dont know if it will happen. it is said that dieting makes you lose weight, but exercising keeps it off. i have lost a couple pounds but my exercise involves climbing the stairs and moving shit from my room to the storage room. i really dont like doing it and that whole you feel better afterward thing? nope, not really. doenst work that way for me - im dead afterward. 

i really wish dr.s could figure out what was wrong with me. the adderall might be helping more than the provigil but im not really sure. in the morning i'll get bursts of energy after my coffee but then i'll crash like at 1 pm (like right now i could totally fall asleep but im trying not to) i need to get a referral for a sleep clinic to get studies done but i really dont feel like dealing with my nagging parents again and i really dont want to have my meds messed with right before leaving. however, if i can find something that works or wtf is wrong with me, perfect. 

meh - maybe i will lie down, loud knocking should wake me up...
mood: aggravatedaggravated
music: 4ever ~ The Veronicas
 
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